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Today was disturbing and quite creepy. Fucking creepers man. Give me the creeps.

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 20:35:12 -0400

Today was disturbing and quite creepy. Fucking creepers man. Give me the creeps.

March 21, 2013 Yesterday, I went on an amazing date with my wonderful girlfriend :D She called...

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 14:36:00 -0400

March 21, 2013

Yesterday, I went on an amazing date with my wonderful girlfriend :D She called to wake me up around 11 because our date starts around 1! She took forever to find out what to wear but in the end, my bebs looked HAWT anyways ;) We went to khols and got me a nice tie because none of my ties looked good on me and we got my bebs this sexy thang that made her even more HAWT.

Got to the movies around 2pm and the movie started at 2:30. We went to go see OZ: THE GREAT AND POWERFUL! It was a really good movie :D Funny too. hahaha. (moooooo) after the movie we went to Olive Garden cause my bebs wanted to go there. :) It was actually pretty darn good! and our waiter was a nice funny lady so I gave her a $11 tip x) I’m only cheap when I want to be. Anyways~ I had the Grilled Chicken Caesar salad while my bebs had some Ravioli Beef thing. Nom Nom Nom. SOOO GOOOOOD. ME WANT MORE FOOD. (from Olive Garden)

We ate and enjoyed our meals and then we left~ We go to McDonalds to check our schedules and leave to go to the park and enjoy all the ratchets there :D Then we finally go home and gave my bebs kisses goodbye~ Muwah!

Love you bebs~ thanks for the wonderful day~~

P.S. Next Time, WE EAT PHO!

February 23, 2013 Today I woke up and my girlfriend was at my bedroom door! :D Omgah, it was so...

Sun, 24 Feb 2013 01:36:49 -0500

February 23, 2013

Today I woke up and my girlfriend was at my bedroom door! :D Omgah, it was so weird waking up and seeing her right away. What a great way to start my morning ! ;) I got to cuddle with my baby in my bed too and on top of all that, she got me food from McDonalds breakfast! ^-^ yaaay~ Nom nom nom. I love my babe ;D She took this picture on my laptop when I was in the bathroom haha. She cute. Best morning ever!

Feb 8th, 2013

Sun, 10 Feb 2013 07:54:02 -0500

I’m a couple days late. Anywho, Friday I happened to have the car cause my sister was going to go out that night and gave me the car. I had work from 11-5pm and I asked you if you wanted to go see Warm Bodies that night. You were afraid that your mom would say no because it was so last minute but in the end, she said yes. :)

I got off work, grabbed some McDonalds around 6pm. That damn McDonalds on Ann and Simmons.. I swear, piss me off. Never get anything right. I pump gas and then went to come get you. I picked you up around 7:05 then we went to the movies. We were kind of late for the 7:15 showing so we went to the 7:45 instead.

It was a funny movie. Some funny moments were totally not expected hahaha. The movie was more of a love story than actual action. I enjoyed it. It was a different kind of movie haha. I enjoyed being next to you the entire time with you snuggling me. You were holding on to me the entire time. ^-^ +1

Your curfew was 10pm. The movie ended around 9:40ish and we went straight back to your house. I would loved to go out to eat something together but we didn’t have enough time. I dropped you off at 9:53! super close! haha. We still made it though :P

Well, that was our little movie night together. :D

Watching those videos yesterday made me miss you a lot. I still remember those days where we got...

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 00:55:58 -0500

Watching those videos yesterday made me miss you a lot. I still remember those days where we got that whole class period together cause you were using that as a study hall kind of thing and I was just in there because I had open periods and the teacher knew me from sophomore year and didn’t mind I was there. To be honest, we went through a lot. I remember those days where you would tell me about things.. and I could see you holding back your tears and your hate. I saw all different sides of you on all levels. It always made me happy to see you enjoying yourself and actually showing some sign of happiness. Those videos were a good example of it. We had a lot of days like that, just us. It’s depressing to think about it now and you’re not even around and that life, those memories are all done and gone. None remade or new ones to be. It’s like it all just suddenly stopped. I really wish things could of been different. I always find myself thinking about our funny moments and our talks from time to time because everything I talk about with other people, we already have covered.

I’d remember having a bad day or being in a grumpy mood and just looking forward to coming to class because I always knew we’d have a good day whether or not we did our work or not. haha. I miss that feeling. Oh well. Life goes on. Those videos are just good memories to look back on.

You are so beautiful. Seeing pictures of you during late nights like these when you aren’t...

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 06:15:53 -0500

You are so beautiful. Seeing pictures of you during late nights like these when you aren’t around to talk to me, make me smile like a loser by myself.

I’m just surprised that I have a chance with you.. someone so cute and beautiful. Your eyes, your lips, your hair, your cheeks, your body, your hands.. all so beautiful. I love all of it. The best part of all this is, you’re mine. Only mine. I want to keep you for me and only me. I don’t want anyone else. Just you.

Just you and me.

Although, it can’t be perfect. There are faults in our relationship. I can’t deny that. Things you have done to me. Things I will probably never let go of.

Sometimes I think that’s what is holding me back.. or if I am even being held back by something.. it’d be that.

I don’t know. But when I see you sometimes and think.. I think about just you. Not about us. Not about you and me.. just you. And things seem so much more different.

My favorite.

Fri, 14 Dec 2012 02:19:00 -0500

My favorite part of the day was snuggling with you face to face. Sleeping with you and waking up to see your body in front of me and your arms wrapped around me.. it was wonderful. I loved giving you kisses and seeing your smile and having my arms around you. I felt butterflies. Butterflies that I haven’t felt in awhile to be honest.. but I liked it. a lot. I loved it and I love you. Waking up and seeing you there was my favorite. It made me really happy. I actually felt like one of those cute couples in love~ haha.

I just want you to love me and only me. I don’t want to think you are looking at other people...

Wed, 05 Dec 2012 02:33:29 -0500

I just want you to love me and only me. I don’t want to think you are looking at other people even though it might look like it.. I don’t. I love you. so much.

Sometimes I get really irritated with you and feel so frustrated.. but at night when you are sleeping and I take a glance at you.. you’re so beautiful and I just want to keep you to myself.

I’m afraid people will come to you and take you away without you realizing it because you say things just happen.. kind of like you and me I’m guessing.

I don’t want to keep you if you don’t want to be with me. I just really love you. I know you love me too.

“The only girl I have ever loved is with the guy I used to respect the most.” Today.....

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 00:55:00 -0500

“The only girl I have ever loved is with the guy I used to respect the most.”

Today.. your words were ringing in my mind. Even though I did not hear the words from you, I could hear your voice.

To be honest I felt like crying thinking about it all.

Dead end.

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 16:40:00 -0400

I realized something. I’ve been thinking for awhile now about it and I find that..

The plan that happened now was making sure everyone made it out fine and making her happy and that happened. That’s all I wanted. Now that it’s all okay now and everyone made it out okay.. If I drift away and everyone comes back together.. that would be okay now right? I’ve done what I planned on happening. If I broke up with her right now, she could go back and easily be accepted. I could drift away like my original plan from everyone and everyone will be happy again. They wouldn’t really mind, I looked like the bad guy anyways. I’m drifting away from everyone now whether I want to or not now. Why pity me?

I feel like I am just a person there. Just here. I entered this situation and I have dealt with it. I feel like I am just a person here to help. Now that I have done what I have done to help, I get nothing and everyone can be happy again.

Maybe all these years of knowing all of you people was leading to this problem.. Maybe that’s why I became such close friends to you all so I could help with the problem.. and the only one who would say anything was me. I feel like it was up to me to say anything because God knows I can’t keep such a secret and be okay with it.

It’s all better now though right? I can rest? Not yet? Maybe?

but I fell in love and now I don’t know what to do.

I don’t want to let go just yet. Can’t I feel happy once during this?

but I forget again, I’m the bad guy.

And here I find myself, at a dead end.

Where did you go? I had a dream of seeing you again and I gave you a hug but you were in a rush...

Sat, 27 Oct 2012 18:26:00 -0400

Where did you go? I had a dream of seeing you again and I gave you a hug but you were in a rush sort of. It was like how we were in high school again. B days were the days where it was just pretty much just us. That’s how our friendship started and we got so close. Everyone always didn’t know what we were talking about when you went around going crazy saying how I confuse you such, it was hilarious. In my dream we didn’t catch up or anything, just a simple,” I haven’t seen you in a while! Where were you? haha.” then we hugged and that’s all that happened.. but it was enough for me to feel happy for what it was, until I woke up.

I don’t even care if we don’t even talk everyday.. I just want to see you post stuff again and see that you are still around. You are a considered a very good friend to me. A friend I don’t want to lose. A friend I want to see happy. A friend who I miss.

September 30, 2012 Writing this today because I was too tired yesterday haha. Yesterday, I went on...

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 14:39:00 -0400

September 30, 2012

Writing this today because I was too tired yesterday haha.

Yesterday, I went on a date with my girlfriend. For once I got to drive her around. We just spent the day together. She was never out of my sight and I wasn’t out of hers. Spending a day with her was something I want more of. I want more of these days.

First, I left my house around 12:45pm because I thought we were meeting up at 1pm. Turns out we were meeting up at 2pm Lolol. So I got gas and put in only $10 and it lasted us the whole day! :D I went to McDonalds after and sat there waiting. Saw Courtney and said hi :D Got me some sweet tea and waited for you. I saw so much children and it was busy at McDonalds! Why do I work here? Children are crazy. Then the guy mopping the floor didn’t even put the wetfloor signs and I was freaking out because people were walking all over it and what it they FELL?! </3 omgah. ANYWAYS.. So it’s 1:30pm and you got dropped off at Kholes. I drive over there to find you and picked you up at the front. I’m guessing you were thinking that I had planned out things beforehand but.. I didn’t D: I was completely lost on what we were doing. I did want to go to the mall. Baby could of bought a lot of stuff with her $500. hahaha. You know why we couldn’t though. One day we will go to the mall together though :) Soooo, first thing we did was go to Nikki’s house to drop off his flash drive, I haven’t seen him in a while so we talked and stuff. HE LOST THE PROM VIDEOS AKDSJFKSLADJFLSDAJFL. </3 WWHHHYYYYY. I’ll never get over this. Never. NEVER. </3 Oh and Nikki found it surprising that I had my license hahaha. No one knows. mwuahahaha!

We left Nikki’s around 2ish? haha yeah. Went to Aliante. We were going to see a movie but you were too scared to watch anything so we decided to just leave right when we got to the front of the line haha. We went to go eat Panda Express but we both didn’t know how to order hahahaha. We are such losers. BUT WE LEARNED. Well.. I did. haha. We ate then left. We decided to go visit Aiko and Alyssa because Aiko kept saying we were never going to come and that’s what people always say :P But WE DID! :D HAHA! Jhourdyan was there too. So we hung out with them a bit. Talked and what not about college and what we have been up to. We left around 4:30ish and went back to Aliante Station and came in time for PARANORMAN! :D

That was a pretty good movie. I wanted to see it because it was stop motion. Stop motion is sooooo coooooool :D His movies always scare me though. The design of the characters are always kind of creepy but always a pleasure to watch the story! Some times it was so smooth it didn’t even look like stop motion haha. Very funny and sad story and worth watching. I’m happy I watched a movie with you too. :) first time I ever watched a movie with a person I wanted to be with alone. The movie ended at 7pm.

After we left and went to Seastrand. And just enjoyed the darkness together. haha. Had fun then left to McDonalds. We saw Jose! haha. Random. He was leaving as we got there. Then we ate and I stalked baby until 10:30ish or so and then you got picked by your mommy.

The end.

I had lots of fun baby. Next time, Let’s have a real plan! haha. It was planned out sortaish? haha. Thank you babe. For being the person I got to share today with. I love you. <3

joannieebby: We only took one picture during the whole entire...

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 13:52:42 -0400

joannieebby:

We only took one picture during the whole entire day lol. Oh well.

So I think that was my first legit date :D like where the guy drives the girl, watch a movie & all that. & first date with my baaaaby~

I liked driving around at night with baby. I liked watching a movie with babe. I liked playing with baby’s tummy the best :D lol. I love hearing baby laugh, it’s so CUTE. Asdfghjkl my qt.

Hmm, so baby got me from kohls at 150 ish. Then we dropped off the flash drive at Nikki’s & talked to him for a while. Then we drove around no where for a while lol. Then ate at Panda t Aliante till 3 I think. Then went to Aiko’s & Alyssa’s & saw Jordan…. I can’t spell her name oh well. Then we went to watch Paranorman at 5 till 7. It was better than I thought. Then we went to smiths afterwards to get pink lemonade & brisk. Theeen, went to Seastrand till like almost 9. Then this time I paid for the food & baby learned how to use a card :D then baby stalked me till 1015 when I got picked up by mommy :P

As soon as I got home I missed my baby. I wish I could spend lots & lots of time with baby. I always just like being next to baby, we don’t even have to do anything or go anywhere. I love being in baby’s company.

Thank you for the fun date day baby, I love you so much. ♥ mwuaahh♥ (:

I’m really happy that I am with you. I don’t want to lose you. I love you right where...

Tue, 25 Sep 2012 19:10:06 -0400

I’m really happy that I am with you. I don’t want to lose you. I love you right where you are.. next to me. You’re mine. Only mine. I love you. A lot a lot a lot a lot.

You are such a cutie it makes me so happy knowing you are mine.

It’s okay. Words are a broken record. Actions show the difference. Remember that, and you will...

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 22:39:18 -0400

It’s okay.

Words are a broken record.

Actions show the difference.

Remember that, and you will be okay. It’s okay.

confuseddin: My favorite~

Sun, 16 Sep 2012 19:32:17 -0400

confuseddin:

My favorite~

Today.

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 01:45:00 -0400

September 11, 2012

First off, heart goes out to all those affected by the 9/11 incident.

So today, was interesting. I had a lot of weird moments today. Fun though. haha. I had my first kiss in the rain today. This rain wasn’t like romantic or anything, it was like,”I’LL DROWN YOU MWUAHAHAHA!” kind of rain. Still though ahahaha, it was for sure a kiss in the rain no doubt looool. Today was my first day of working. First job. McDonalds. It sounds like it’s going to be a pain but if I can make money, I’ll try my best to adapt and do everything correctly.

Out of everything today, the most important thing to me was being with you at your house again. It was fun meeting Jaycob and playing with him. Jaycob is halarious looooool. Seeing Rea and Tiny and the family again.. it was nice. Talking to Tiny about Beyblades and how I never had one haha. And seeing Jaycob say, “NO!” to Rea. LOOOOOOOL. That made my day. lmfao. xD Tooooo goooooood.

Anyways, Thank you babe. Love you. :)

P.S. Lets not work together, I’ll be awkward and feel retarded and do everything miserably and you will hate it.

joannieebby: 09/11/2012 Today was a fun day. Lots of accidental...

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 01:35:56 -0400

joannieebby:

09/11/2012

Today was a fun day. Lots of accidental adventures haha.

First, I picked you up in the morning before school & we went to smiths.. The car didn’t start. Ooohp. So we missed Com. But we walked around smiths, went to jack in the box&got these burritos… So sick babe. Yucky. One each, if ever, from now on haha. We both could’ve gotten sick.
Then finally, the car decided to start. So we got to school, early for psy. So we went to the library ! :D That made me really really really happy. Haha.. Then boring Psy.
After we found Brent, went to see Mr Tom Cowan about our absence. Then you got your water, & we went on an adventure around the school. Thennn babe complained about brent cockblocking lol. Stupid. Then we went to English.
The lights went out. I got scared. but baby was there so I wasn’t as scared. :)
So class finished early since all the power was out. It was raining! :DDD
Baby & I had our first kiss in the rain. Haha. We were soaked. Baby let me use his shirt since I was wearing white & it was see through & that’s a no no.
Then we waited in the car for like an hour.. Haha. Then tried driving home. Didn’t work lol.
Stopped at like Martin Luther & Cheyenne. By Carl’s Jr. Had more food. Waited for my mommy & daddy & we went to my house.
Babe came over again :D & met jaycob haha. Babe’s so cute with tiny & jaycob.
Mm, then babe left around 5 & then went home to get ready for his first day at work. I’m waiting for baby to come home now. So I can end a good day with baby with a good night from baby :)

Drove my sister to the bus stop. Felt like I was going to High School again. To see everyone. I...

Wed, 05 Sep 2012 10:12:36 -0400

Drove my sister to the bus stop. Felt like I was going to High School again. To see everyone. I miss High School. Sometimes I wish I could go back to the start of freshman year… but it’s too late now, the choices I have made.. it’s all too late. For the rest of my life I’ll be tainted with the memories I have made.

I’ll be happy though. Happy for what it was worth.

Yesterday night..

Sun, 02 Sep 2012 16:24:00 -0400

You told me that you wanted to be my bestfriend for a long time. Even if there’s an after. At first, I was happy to hear that but at the same time, you say that to other guys too. It was a sad thought but I felt genuinely happy when you started to explain as to why I am different and why you wanted to be my bestfriend for a long time. You said that you were never comfortable with other people like you are with me. You said that our relationship was the closest to yours and your sister’s.

That made me happy. I do want to be your bestfriend too. Wherever life may lead us, it will be nice to have you to talk too. Whether or not you are my girlfriend or my bestfriend.